A Little Cup of Cyanide

So, I have some mystery illness. Everyone has their ideas what it is. Cassie thinks that it's either my thyroid acting up or I'm anemic. Whatever that means. My dad thinks it's my thyroid, because according to him, once you start medicating something, it decides it has help so it doesn't need to work as hard. (I kind of want to write a comic about this. Mr. Thyroid going all orgasmic over some Synthroid.) And Bridget thinks I have mono, because I feel exactly how she did when she had it.

I don't think it's my thyroid, first off. Because I already had this issue last summer, and while I'm perfectly aware that it can and probably will get worse, it doesn't feel the same. It's a hundred times worse in the 'let me go to sleep or die a terribly slow, painful death' area. Also, I'm not hungry at all. Yesterday I had half a vanilla pudding cup. After that I went to sleep and didn't eat again until I had the other half today. I didn't lose my appetite until after I started taking the medicine. And while I'm pretty sure this isn't my problem, I'm really hoping it is. Then I can get some stronger pills (holy crap, I sound like a junkie now...) and be better in a few days. Hopefully before finals.

I don't think it's mono either, because there's no way in hell I could catch it. I don't eat or drink after people. It's gross and completely unsanitary. And I sure as hell don't go around making out with random people. I don't make out with anyone, actually. And if I have mono, all I can do is sleep and wait for gods only know how long until it decides to go away. And I don't have that time because I have papers to write and finals to take and classes to go to and work to do.

I was talking to my mom this afternoon. We were talking about how Lost is back on. Which I’m excited about. Waiting for the new episodes has been excruciating. But I missed the first episode, anyway. I was taking a nap and set my alarm for 9:00 because I thought that was when it was on. Instead it was some “inside Lost” thing, and the new episode started at 10:00. So, I figure hey, I’m up; I might as well watch it. I fall asleep half way through it and wake up right when the woman is saying that that dude with the spine problem was going to get her off the island. I missed the whole show. Grrrrr, I say. I hope somebody on YouTube loves me this week.

Anyway, then she told me that Degrassi is coming to USA. You should have seen me jumping around my room. Seriously, I was that happy. I’ve been watching it on theN.com. My computer doesn’t like their player. Sometimes it’s great, and sometimes I want to take it and eat it’s face off. If it had a face. Does it have a face? I think the little screen might be it’s face. I’ll eat it then. During “The Bitterest Pill,” it kept going perfect through the funeral part, then started buffering every two seconds for two minutes. Then when it got to the locker part, it goes into perpetual buffer mode. I mean, the exact same spot every time I tried. “Oh, look, it’s the tape—“ BUFFER! I was mad. It wouldn’t even let me watch the episode where JT died until a week after I found out he was gone.

Do you know the hell I went through? Knowing JT, one of my all time favorite characters is dead and not knowing the details? I mean it’s JT. Who would kill JT? He’s awesome. He was one of the first three characters introduced in the very first episode. It was crazy. I actually got super attached to the little fucker. I mean, he was there from the beginning, and he’s just that great guy you can’t help but love, even if he is annoying at times. Anyway, yeah. Finding out they’ll be showing it on USA is just the greatest, because I can get USA down here.

It sort of amazes me how many American fans there are. There must be if a major network is picking it up. Let’s face it, a network like USA isn’t going to run a show that they don’t think will boost ratings. The N isn’t that big of a channel. I mean, it shares it’s daytimes with shows about baby animals working together to save the day and an annoying singing moose. If you asked someone about South of Nowhere or Instant Star, there’s a good chance no one will know what you’re talking about. most of the people who have the channel probably only have it because it was part of a satellite package, and probably less than half of those people are even aware that they have it, let alone watch it. So I thought I was weird for loving Degrassi and watching it. But I’ve found out it’s actually a pretty huge deal. I watched that little thing they had about them going to New York. It totally blew my mind that they would be shocked at the response. I would think they’d be used to it by now. I mean, they’re Degrassi! I would think that if they get that kind of response in New York that it would be even more so in Canada.